Once a planner, always a planner…to a fault.
My Plan (it makes me laugh to even say that).
I’ve always had a “plan” for how I wanted my life to be, at what age I wanted certain events to take place (I wanted to get married at 25, have my first child at 28 and my second at 30). Crazy right? How do you plan your life that way? Truth is, you don’t, or shouldn’t, if you want to keep your sanity. I’ve learned a lot in my almost 30 (YIKES) years on this planet. And one of the most prominent things is that you just can’t plan for everything. That doesn’t mean, however, that I still won’t try.
I stumbled upon a quote that I have fallen slightly in love with:
“Sometimes, before you make any plans or resolutions, before you declare your heroic intent to persevere, you just have to cry.”
— Jaclyn Dolamore (Magic Under Glass)
I’ve cried a lot (I mean a LOT), but it’s not always before I’ve made plans. A majority of the time, it’s after my plans have failed to go the way I thought they should. That doesn’t mean things haven’t turned out for the better per say, but I’ve felt a lot less in control. I have a thing about making back up plans (usually A, B and at least C). I’m trying to learn that you can’t always live in an “if; then” kind of world, but it’s a lot easier said than done.
Here’s to learning how to “go with the flow” while keeping my plan in place, ya know, just in case ;).